meri shadi hue es saal 4 saal ho jaayenge.... aur mere bete ko 3 saal... shadi ke pahale aur usake baad me bahut farak nahi aaya tha... jitnaa ki bache ke hone ke pahale aur usake baad me aaya.
shadi ke waqt sirf ek baat dimaag me thi --- wo baat jo har koi kahtaa hai "shadi kaa ladoo khaaye wo bhi pachtaaye aur jo naa khaaye wo bhi pachtaaye"
lekin maine ek aur baat suni thi "def of over confidence - shadi ke baad sabaki life hell hoti hai magar shadi karne wala sochtaa hai ki ye usake saath nahi hoga". to shadi ke baad thodi paise ki samasyaa aur badh gayi aur meri jindagi me ungali karne waalo ki sankhaya bhi badha gayi.... thode comparisons karne ke liye log aur badh gaye... aas paas mujhase behtar aur logo ki sankhyaa badh gayi... aur aise example set hone lage jaisa mujhe hona chahiye.. ya main nahi ho saktaa hun... yaa phir kuch unsuccessful log jaisa main kissi bhi din ho saktaa hai.
anyways... these things don't matter kyunki life me jab bhi aage badho to naye najaare to dekhane ko milenge.. ab ek ped aur waisa hi ek aur ped yaa phir waise bahut se ped agar dekhane ko mil jaate hai... to bahut aascharya nahi hota... aur naahi bahut jyada sar chakrata hai.
lekin bache ke hone ke baad jo huaa wo bahut hi surprising and eyeopener tha.... ek aisi feeling se rubarooo huaa jo pahale aayi thi par es tarah nahi.
ek aur proverb --- ham sabako marnaa hai ye ham jaante hai lekin espar yakin nahi karte.
bache ke hone ke baad mujhe es baat par yakeen bhi hone laga... aur "child is father of nation" waali baat bhi samajh me aane lagi... aur bachpan ke din bahut suhaane hote hai aur ham sablog usako miss karte hai wo bhi samajh me aane lagaa.
Tarah tarah ki baatein ab samajh me aane lagi.... financial insecurity bhi uname se ek hai.
jab main apne bache ko dekhataa hun... his name is Unnat... to mujhe aisa lagtaa hai ki kal ki to baat hai jab main aisa hi tha... waise wo abhi bahut chota hai aur saayad mujhe us umar ki koi baat yaad naa ho lekin usake aas paas ke umar ki baatein yaad hai...
to jo mere dimag me chaltaa tha... yaa main jo chahtaa thaa... aur wo nahi hota tha... yaa phir main kuch sochataa tha usake bilkul ultaa hota tha... ek tarah se main pahale duniyaa ke harakato se effect hota hai... lekin ab Unnat ko dekhtaa hun aur sochataa hun ki wo bhi har baat se effect hota hoga... mujhe ab apne dard se jyada chintaa usake dard ki hone lagi hai...
Ab saayad main bacha nahi rah gaya hun... jo thoda bahut bhaag bhi sesh rah gaya tha ab khatam ho gaya hai.... ab sirf Unnat hi bacha hai aur main jo pahale har baat ko taal deta tha yaa phir pareshan hokar pareshani se muh chipa leta tha... ab wo main nahi kar saktaa hun....
pareshani se muh chipana ek baat hai -- wo bhi kyunki abhi mera mood off hai --- thoda frustrated hun ki life me kyaa hoga... main paisa banaa paaunga... aur koi successful career hoga aur wo career kaisa hoga... aur tamaam tarah ke sawaal lekin un sabase alag hat kar ki Unnat mujhase wo bahut se sawaal karega jinake jawaab mere paas kabhi nahi the... kabhi socha ki farak kyaa padtaa hai to kabhi ye soch kar taal diya ki aage pata chal jaayega... lekin ab kyaa???
es duniyaa ke baare me main usako kyaa bataaunga... achi hai... buri hai.... safed hai ... black hai, grey hai yaa phir kyaa hai... yaa saayad wo mujhe kuch sawaalo ke jawaab dhundhane me meri madad karega.
dekhate hai!!!
shadi ke waqt sirf ek baat dimaag me thi --- wo baat jo har koi kahtaa hai "shadi kaa ladoo khaaye wo bhi pachtaaye aur jo naa khaaye wo bhi pachtaaye"
lekin maine ek aur baat suni thi "def of over confidence - shadi ke baad sabaki life hell hoti hai magar shadi karne wala sochtaa hai ki ye usake saath nahi hoga". to shadi ke baad thodi paise ki samasyaa aur badh gayi aur meri jindagi me ungali karne waalo ki sankhaya bhi badha gayi.... thode comparisons karne ke liye log aur badh gaye... aas paas mujhase behtar aur logo ki sankhyaa badh gayi... aur aise example set hone lage jaisa mujhe hona chahiye.. ya main nahi ho saktaa hun... yaa phir kuch unsuccessful log jaisa main kissi bhi din ho saktaa hai.
anyways... these things don't matter kyunki life me jab bhi aage badho to naye najaare to dekhane ko milenge.. ab ek ped aur waisa hi ek aur ped yaa phir waise bahut se ped agar dekhane ko mil jaate hai... to bahut aascharya nahi hota... aur naahi bahut jyada sar chakrata hai.
lekin bache ke hone ke baad jo huaa wo bahut hi surprising and eyeopener tha.... ek aisi feeling se rubarooo huaa jo pahale aayi thi par es tarah nahi.
ek aur proverb --- ham sabako marnaa hai ye ham jaante hai lekin espar yakin nahi karte.
bache ke hone ke baad mujhe es baat par yakeen bhi hone laga... aur "child is father of nation" waali baat bhi samajh me aane lagi... aur bachpan ke din bahut suhaane hote hai aur ham sablog usako miss karte hai wo bhi samajh me aane lagaa.
Tarah tarah ki baatein ab samajh me aane lagi.... financial insecurity bhi uname se ek hai.
jab main apne bache ko dekhataa hun... his name is Unnat... to mujhe aisa lagtaa hai ki kal ki to baat hai jab main aisa hi tha... waise wo abhi bahut chota hai aur saayad mujhe us umar ki koi baat yaad naa ho lekin usake aas paas ke umar ki baatein yaad hai...
to jo mere dimag me chaltaa tha... yaa main jo chahtaa thaa... aur wo nahi hota tha... yaa phir main kuch sochataa tha usake bilkul ultaa hota tha... ek tarah se main pahale duniyaa ke harakato se effect hota hai... lekin ab Unnat ko dekhtaa hun aur sochataa hun ki wo bhi har baat se effect hota hoga... mujhe ab apne dard se jyada chintaa usake dard ki hone lagi hai...
Ab saayad main bacha nahi rah gaya hun... jo thoda bahut bhaag bhi sesh rah gaya tha ab khatam ho gaya hai.... ab sirf Unnat hi bacha hai aur main jo pahale har baat ko taal deta tha yaa phir pareshan hokar pareshani se muh chipa leta tha... ab wo main nahi kar saktaa hun....
pareshani se muh chipana ek baat hai -- wo bhi kyunki abhi mera mood off hai --- thoda frustrated hun ki life me kyaa hoga... main paisa banaa paaunga... aur koi successful career hoga aur wo career kaisa hoga... aur tamaam tarah ke sawaal lekin un sabase alag hat kar ki Unnat mujhase wo bahut se sawaal karega jinake jawaab mere paas kabhi nahi the... kabhi socha ki farak kyaa padtaa hai to kabhi ye soch kar taal diya ki aage pata chal jaayega... lekin ab kyaa???
es duniyaa ke baare me main usako kyaa bataaunga... achi hai... buri hai.... safed hai ... black hai, grey hai yaa phir kyaa hai... yaa saayad wo mujhe kuch sawaalo ke jawaab dhundhane me meri madad karega.
dekhate hai!!!
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